the past few weeks I’ve been thinking about what my “new years resolution” should be. the whole time I was thinking about my social anxiety and self-confidence, how this year I should be more “out there” and social, and try not to look around so often and compare myself to people I see as “better” than me. but as of right now, I really don’t think I have it in me.
I’m not begging for anyone’s attention or encouragement because when I know there are people counting on me, I never do it in fear that if I did I’d mess it up. 
instead of giving my goal the title of “new years resolution” and pretty much giving myself a due date for when I should be “better” I’m gonna give myself as much time as I need. 
although I’d like to be able to keep up a conversation with anyone or be able to look at myself in the mirror with happiness as soon as possible, I need to realize that a year might not be long enough. I’m gonna take baby steps. being able to talk to/meet a person I’ve never talked to/met before, accepting people’s invites to social events rather than lying and saying I have plans, and attempting to come up with a few good things about myself every time I think of a negative. 

I know I should change for the better, and the first step to that is admitting that not being able to socialize properly or be content with my own body just isn’t healthy.

This blog’s basically gonna consist of pictures I’ve taken and things I like, it’s gonna be a legit “person blog.”